Monday, October 15, 2018

Thoughts on Neon Gravestones by Twenty-One Pilots

Found this picture on Reddit - thanks user mikronaut

Twenty-One Pilots' new album Trench just came out! I won't be reviewing EVERY song but I do want to review the songs that stuck out to me. Let's first talk the song that was the most jarring to me - "Neon Gravestones."

The line that was most jarring to me was, "Promise me this/If I lose to myself/You won't mourn a day/And you'll move onto someone else." DANG. The words, "if I lose to myself" really got me as a person who also struggles with depression. It just is a constant fight with yourself!

When I first heard the song overall, I did see it a little negatively. Tyler is criticizing all these celebrities for taking their own life just to get more fame - which will lead more people/celebrities to do the same. I see where he is coming from but when a celebrity does take their own life, I do try NOT to think those thoughts. When I see everyone talking about Avicii and how great his music was posthumorously, sometimes a little voice in my head asks, "did he do this for fame?" But "No!!!" I tell myself. He was facing a tough disease...no one would take their own life for fame. They would only do it if they are suffering.

But I do see where Tyler is coming from. Tyler is being hard on these celebrities who committed suicide. "It's with the people we praise who may have assisted." Every time a celebrity commits suicide, there is a spike in suicides for the general public - that's just basic facts. Tyler is being very hard on them - but it is true to an extent. Being a public figure means you will be talked about if you commit suicide so you have even more of a responsibility to fight the mental illness.

"We don't get enough love?/Well, they get a fraction/They say, "How could he go if he's got everything?/I'll mourn for a kid, but won't cry for a king."

Tyler saying he won't cry for a king is another sharp way of criticizing these celebrities. He is saying these celebrities (he uses the pronoun "we" because he is one) get a lot of love because they have many fans. The "they" he speaks of is the general public. Tyler says he will mourn for a non-celebrity suicide more than he would for a celebrity suicide. Regular kids who are suffering with mental illness and may not have anyone to help them. These kids might not have had enough money for treatment. They might not have had a support system. Celebrities, usually. do have more resources to get mental help than the general public.



I do see the song in a more positive light now because I know what the thesis statement of the song is.

"I'm not disrespecting what was left behind/Just pleading that it does not get glorified."

Tyler's main message is that the media needs to do more to not glorify suicide. This means not promoting, "13 Reasons Why," which glorifies and uses suicide for drama.

However, when a celebrity dies by suicide - are we not supposed to mourn for them? I say we have to! Especially those who value the art that they created. The collective public does need to talk about the life and art of the celebrity to come to terms with their death.

I am not sure what the solution is. How are we supposed to prevent the spike in suicides after a celebrity death? I can't answer that...



I also like the ending of the song. "Find your grandparents or someone of age/Pay some respects for the path that they paved/To life, they were dedicated/Now, that should be celebrated." I like the idea of celebrating old people for living. They suffered, they probably had mental health problems, but they fought and they lived for such a long time and that's beautiful.

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Friday, September 7, 2018

Why I Am Not A Hufflepuff Anymore

I was looking at my old website on wayback machine. By "old," I mean the website I created when I WAS IN THE FIFTH GRADE. Wild. I had more of a passion for coding then than I do now. Here's a small snapshot.


Yes, in the fifth grade, I was a proud and out Hufflepuff. And I continued to be a Hufflepuff for many years after that. Let me do the math: I was 10 in the fifth grade, and I was 24 when I stopped being a Hufflepuff. So that is FOURTEEN years of identifying as something I am now rejecting. I even wrote an article called, "Why I Am A Hufflepuff" on my old website in 7th grade, but I can't find it on Way Back Machine. So as an ode to that lost article, here is "Why I am Not A Hufflepuff Anymore."


First, let me talk about why I identified so strongly with Hufflepuff. One of the main values of this house is fairness. As I've mentioned before, I have always been a feminist. My mom likes to joke around and say that it is just in our genes to always call out the sexist things around us. I try my hardest to make things fair for everyone around me - especially when I am acting as a leader or part of a team.

Helga Hufflepuff once said, "I’ll teach the lot, and treat them just the same." I have always felt this way. I have never wanted to exclude anyone, because as a child, I was excluded by my peers plenty of times for being to shy or weird. I liked that Helga Hufflepuff loved and accepted everyone. I don't believe in excluding others. As a child, when I saw bulling I never wanted to be a part of it. I remember a bunch of girls in 6th grade who were bullying this one girl and saying they didn't want to hang out with her.. I asked, "Why?" and they said "because we just don't like her," and that is when I was like "pass." I can't get behind excluding someone...especially without a reason. And even if there is a valid reason, I believe in making that judgement for myself. 

Another reason I was drawn to Hufflepuff is that I like to support the underdog. I like to think kindess can win the day.

But as I talked about in my blog post, Why Don't I Connect With Nice, Warm People Who Want To Spend Time With Me?, I was recently betrayed by my friends. And in that betrayal, it wasn't loyalty or fairness that saved me - it was bravery. My friends were not loyal to me; they didn't have my back like true friends should. They actually put me in harms way. I might have had loyalty towards them. I would never have done what they did to me because I believe in doing the right thing.

I guess I don't believe loyalty is the best trait anymore. It's too external, it's too needy to expect it from other people. And when you give loyalty - it comes with great risks. Instead, I want to embrace being brave. You know, where I am going with this ~

I am now a self-identified Gryffindor! 

Except...that I'm not. I just took a quiz on Time.com that told me I am still a Hufflepuff. It's true, I'm a softie at heart. I can't help it. But listen, I really value Gryffindor values. In life, you have to be brave. You have to be brave to go through trials and tribulations and face them dead on. If you aren't brave, you could die from all the hardships life throws at you. As a person with mild social anxiety, I had to force myself to do things that were scary since Kindergarten. I am not naturally a brave person, but I want to cultivate that value.

And when my "friends," hurt me the way that they did, I was brave. I pulled myself up. I found safety for myself. I found power and independence. I was brave enough to try to love again with new friends. Every day I have to summon bravery to let people in and that's why I am now a proud Gryffindor.

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Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Is the Boston Go Card Worth It? - A Travel Blog

I went on a family vacation recently to New England. Groupon was offering a 2 day Boston Go card for 73 dollars (regular price: $81) so I took the plunge and bought it for the fam. I believe it was worth it but you have to do your own analysis to figure out if it is worth it for you.

I wanted to use this blog post to offer some tips and ideas to consider before buying one. I also wanted to show you an itinerary on how my family used the Boston Go Card.

Parking and Transportation: The attractions in the pass are sometimes no where near each other. If you want to go to multiple places, be prepared to spend money on either 1) public transportation or 2) parking. Boston has zero free parking places so you have to be careful. This can add up your costs significantly. As you'll see in the itinerary, my family spent money parking near the Museum of Science ($11 dollars) and Skywalk Observatory ($15 dollars) for just a few hours of fun.

Also, something to consider is Boston Traffic. It is horrible. I live near New York City so I know if you try to drive to the city during rush hour, you.will.die. For some reason, this thought didn't occur to me for Boston. A lot of the attractions in the Go Card are open from 9-5 which is why I wanted to drive in by 9am. This was just a pain - we ended up coming in around 10am or even 11 - which means we missed a few hours of the pass. In the Boston Go Card, there are many "out of town" attractions like Cape Cod Cruise or Salem Witch House. Be careful, and don't underestimate how much time it will take to get there.


Look for better deals on the attractions you want to see: Check out Groupon or Goldstar or even the attraction's website. Even if the Go Card's website says an attraction is worth a certain amount, you may be able to find a better deal.

Boston, MA

My Family's Boston Go Card Itinerary:

Day 1:
We parked near Long Warf for $25 dollars.
10AM-11AM: USS Constitution Cruise ($25). This is a 45 minute cruise if you don't get off at the USS Constitution.
11AM:  New England Aquarium ($28). This place is near the USS Constitution Cruise which leaves from Long Warf. We spent an hour here just because we were dying from the sun and wanted air conditioning. We were very unlucky - there was a heat wave in Boston when we visited and the weather was warmer than where we came from even though Boston was up north! We only checked out the first floor and the penguins and sea lions were cool but I wish we had explored the other floors. Though this attraction is valued at 27.95, I don't think we got our moneys worth. We explored maybe $10 worth of the aquarium. Also, we did get to skip the line - a perk!!!
12-1PM: Lunch at Quincy Market. You gotta eat fam! The water and soda was so expensive here (3 dollars a bottle). My advice: find somewhere around the area to get your water and soda before eating.
1PM: CityView Hop-On Hop-Off Boston Trolley Sightseeing Tour: 2-Day Ticket (43.00 on website, $17 on groupon): We actually did hop and off. This was useful because we didn't have to pay for public transportation all the time. It's also nice that it was a 2 day ticket which helped us see the city both days! The website says it is 43 dollars, but Groupon was offering a one day ticket for $17 dollars so make sure to look for better deals for all these attractions. I did like the tour guides and it was nice to feel the breeze of the bus on a hot day.
1 PM to 5PM: We visited stops in the freedom trail using the bus and our feet. We got a canoli at Mike's Pastry. We visited Paul Revere House ($5) and Old State House ($10).

And then we were tired and ready to go home. But oh no, it's 5pm!! Time to drive 45 minutes to our hotel during rush hour.


Day 2:
We parked near Boston Commons for 15 dollars.
10:30ish: Swan Boats ($5): It was pretty neat going on the water and seeing the ducks. We looked around Boston Commons and Boston Public Gardens.
12: Back on the trolley. Explored Chinatown, ate snack
2pm: USS Constitution (free!): I definitly reccomend going into teh USS Constituion - it was nice to visit a free attraction.
4pm: Ate some food near Boston Commons where we parked.
5 pm - 7pm: Museum of Science ($25): This attraction was open until 7 which was very cool!!! We had to spend $11 dollars on parking (it would have been more if we had entered earlier). I wished we spent more time at this place. This is one of the few attractions that I would want to go to again. The fam got memorized at the exhibit where you learn about your body. The exhibit gives you a wristband and tracks your data as you do activities such as measure how well you walk or how big your ear is. We are very self-absorbed people - we love learning about ourselves!
7pm - 9 pm: SkyWalk Observatory ($20): This attraction was open until 10pm so we knew we could save it for last. We paid $14 dollars at the Prudential Center mall for parking (we had to validate the ticket at the gift shop though!). We were able to see hints of the sunset and also see Boston at night. I do recommend coming at day time because you can spot buildings better.

I totaled everything I bolded in dark purple.
Day 1 Total: $85
Day 2 Total: $50
Both Days Total: $135

135-73= $62 dollars in savings!

I guess it was worth it for us. But then again the Go Card made us stressed for time and see the attractions for only a brief period of time. I wish we had more time to see Museum of Science and the New England Aquarium! So maybe it wasn't exactly 62 dollars in savings. Up to you to analyze and decide!

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Friday, July 13, 2018

Twenty One Pilots Are Back With "Jumpsuit" and "Nico And The Niners"

Twenty One Pilots "Jumpsuit" and "Nico And The Niners" Review



"We've been here the whole time. You've been asleep. Time to wake up"

YAAASS I HAVE BEEN SLEEPING.

no, but seriously, I have been sleeping on Twenty-One Pilots while they were on break. I had no idea what their secrets clues meant. I have no idea who Clancy is. I have no idea who Dema is. I have no idea what Nico and The Niners are. I am clearly an old 25 year old FAKE fan.

I want to know what all those things are and I will do my research when I have time. But there is so much information to process that I haven't had the time.

In the meantime, I wanted to post my reactions to the song.

JUMPSUIT: I love the drumming in the beginning of the song. When the song first started, I was like, "yes!! They have delivered." I like the emotions this song evokes....the feeling of trying to get away from something that is scaring you. There are moments when you feel calm and moments you feel like screaming which this song executes perfectly. There's a moment when it gets quiet, and then the build up to Tyler's scream. LOVED IT.

The jumpsuit is supposed to represent protection. The few clues I have read about this new era is that the color yellow is supposed to protect either Tyler or Clancy? I thought that was really cool because I remember when the Heathens music video released, I was like WOAH YELLOW BLAZER. That really stood out to me.

I used to joke that Tyler is definitely going to write songs about how intense it is to get so much fame and success from their last album, Blurryface. And lookie here, I was right!! Tyler's first few words for this new era were, "I can't believe how much I hate/Pressures of a new place roll my way." They are so predictable (in a good way, of course!).


Nico and The Niners: As I've said, no idea who this nico is or these niners are! I do like the song...in the beginning, I liked it more than Jumpsuit. It's familiar. Now that I've listen to it quite a few times, I feel like it's very similar to their previous songs...which makes it a little less original. I can hear similar reggae beats from some of their older songs. This song reminds me of Message Man for some reason. I feel like the rapping is similar here too.

"Save your razor blades - not yet." I feel like this line should have a trigger warning. It is jarring. I don't think I'm going to listen to the song as much because of it.

Nico and The Niners has a lot of call backs. It has call back to East which I believe was a clue. It has a call back to Dema, what ever that is. It even calls back to Jumpsuit! I wish this song was easier to understand if you didn't follow the clues. I actually wish that of both songs - that it was more catchier, that it had a better chorus that actually says something meaningful.

Anyway, those are just my initial thoughts. Let me know if you agree or disagree with me in the comments!!

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Monday, July 9, 2018

Hunger by Florence + The Machine, a lyrical analysis


New York has an alternative rock station now!! Though I don't follow Florence + The Machine, I do like many of their songs and when I heard Hunger playing on the radio, I was immediately impressed. It sounds so good and deep so let's analyze the lyrics!!


Hunger by Florence + The Machine, Song Meaning and Lyrical Interpretation

At seventeen, I started to starve myself
I thought that love was a kind of emptiness
And at least I understood then the hunger I felt
And I didn't have to call it loneliness

When I heard the first line, I felt so sad at the idea of Florence starving herself. That is a gut-punch opening line. Then as I listened to the rest of the song, I was like oh wait, she isn't talking about literally starving herself from food. The hunger and starvation are supposed to represent something else. Maybe she is starving herself from human connection. She was afraid of love (calling it emptiness) so she starved herself from connection.

Then I went on genius.com to see what they had to say about it. Looks like I was wrong!! Florence did have an eating disorder. That fact made me change my mind about how I interpret this stanza.

Maybe Florence thought she had to be skinny to be beautiful. Only people who are skinny can get love so "love was a kind of emptiness." The last two lines are saying, even then, she still knew her thinking was wrong. She knew, even then, that love was complex and more deep than the superficial notion.


"And I didn't have to call it loneliness," is one of my favorite lines. I still stand by my interpretation that hunger is supposed to represent that primal need for human connection. She doesn't want to call it loneliness. She doesn't want to call it an absence of human connection. Instead, she wants to call it the intense need of human connection. She is coming from a place of abundance in this way. She doesn't lack love, she is just passionate about it instead. She has a hunger for love.
Tell me what you need, oh, you look so free
The way you use your body, baby, come on and work it for me
Don't let them get you down, you're the best thing I've seen
We never found the answer but we knew one thing
We all have a hunger
Who is this stanza talking about? Sometimes, I feel like she is talking about her lover but other times I feel like she is talking about her self. Her lover's body may not be perfect but she still loves it. He or she looks free and beautiful. By seeing how she feels about her lover's body, she can also feel love for her own flawed body.  "Don't let them get you down," is saying don't let the media or society's standards of beauty get you down.

The hunger, or the primal need for love and connection, is more than the superficial
And it's Friday night and it's kicking in
And I can't dress, they're gonna crucify me
Oh, but you in all your vibrant youth
How could anything bad ever happen to you?
You make a fool of death with your beauty, and for a moment. 

The "I can't dress," may be saying she can't fit into her dress (on a night out when she is supposed to be mingling with potential mates) and now society will look down on her. But then she tells herself, she is full of so much life and hope. She should stop focusing on the superficial and take everything life has to offer in.

I thought that love was in the drugs
But the more I took, the more it took away
And I could never get enough
I thought that love was on the stage
You give yourself to strangers
You don't have to be afraid
And then it tries to find a home with people, oh, and I'm alone
Picking it apart and staring at your phone
She tried finding love in drugs and in her career but it wasn't enough.  When she does try to find love in other people, she feels alone. She feels like she has to dissect and understand it ("staring at your phone"). Instead, she just needs to understand that this need for love and connection is just as natural as literal hunger.

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Friday, July 6, 2018

Original Memes: this is so sad alexa play despacito

My Original Memes

*starts to develop feelings for someone*
this is so sad alexa play Fearless by Taylor Swift

*starts to develop feelings for someone* this is so sad alexa play Fearless by Taylor Swift

coworkers: there is a production issue
my thoughts: this is so sad alexa play despacito

coworkers there is a production issue this is so sad alexa play despacito software engineering

Saturday, June 30, 2018

Mitski's "Nobody" Music Video Explained

I'm a huge fan of Mitski ever since I discovered her when she was the opener for the Lorde Concert (Melodrama Tour). My favorite Mitski songs include, "Your Best American Girl," "Townie," and "First Love / Late Spring." Mitski recently released a new music video for her new song called, "Nobody." I think it's a very well-thought out video with a lot of creativity and symbolism so I wanted to analyze it.

Mitski's "Nobody", Music Video Meaning and Interpretation

The main theme of the song and of the music video is loneliness

The Beginning Scene References The Ending Scene

Nobody Mitski on a date with herself
Mitski on a date with herself

In the beginning, you see two Mitskis drinking a milkshake with each other. It is framed like Mitski is going on a date with herself. The main conclusion Mitski reaches towards the ending of the video is that though she thinks she has "nobody," she actually has herself. That is why at the ending, you see the words "You," the same way, "Nobody" was listed. In the picture above, the two Mitskis are looking in each others eyes and drinking from the same glass so it is an intimate feeling. Instead of lamenting on her loneliness, the music video tells Mitski that she should spend some time with herself and get to know herself better. 



The hourglass shape of the milkshake glass is also important. I believe it is alluding to how the music video is distorting time. I believe the beginning scene actually takes place AFTER the ending scene. The scene pictured above happens AFTER Mitski discovers the words, "You," on her hand, effectively teaching her that she should spend time with herself.  

Mitski Nobody magnifying glass
Mitski doesn't have nobody - she has herself!


No Faces Means No Connection

Mitski Nobody Faces
Faces are scribbled out because Mitski can't connect with other humans
No one in the music video has faces. The sitcom is shot below the neck. The waiters of the restaurant are also only seen dancing with their legs and torso. I believe Mitski not being able to see faces is symbolic of her not being able to connect with anyone. She wishes she could. If you notice her breakfast, she has arranged it in the shape of a smile because that is how much she wants that connection. 
Mitski Nobody Breakfast
The only other face in the music video


I believe watching TV is a way to get some easy, quick, but fake, connection. You see other humans on the screen who might have similar emotions and struggles as you. But it's not as real as actual human beings in real life so that's why the tv humans still don't have a face.


The World Isn't Able To Connect With Her Either

Mitski may not be to connect with others, but others aren't able to connect with her either. That is why she receives a painting of her without her face. That's how other people see her. Maybe she can't open up and show who she really is to other people. Since other people can't connect with her, they can't see her face. The arms that pop out of the wall may symbolize her self-sabotage. The arms try to rip out her face even more. Maybe Eugene Farley, the person who created the painting, wanted to connect with her. That is why he drew her. But he just couldn't draw her face because she didn't show herself fully to him. Mitski is happy someone kind of understands her enough to draw some of her so that's why she hangs the painting up with glee. 

When the arms rip out the painting, Mitski looks into the hole and sees a woman who she calls out for. I don't really understand the purpose of this woman. Maybe that woman is supposed to help her understand herself. She doesn't have black hair but you can see some black roots. Maybe this woman is Mitski in disguise. Maybe it is who Mitski is pretending to be instead of showing her real self. 

Mitski Nobody


After the painting rips, Mitski wants to call the artist. I think she does this because she wants the painting fixed or a duplicate. She wants the item that represents that at least someone understands her back. Maybe she calls Eugine so that he can tell her who she is. It doesn't go so well. The person who opens the door has Mitski's face but then it immediately gets erased. Maybe this symbolizes someone understanding her briefly and then just not being able to anymore.

Painting Mitski Is Dressed Like The Sitcom Characters


I love the attention to detail in this music video!! Mitski in the painting has the same green necklace and shirt as the lady in the sitcom!! Maybe this symbolizes Mitski trying to connect with the sitcom characters and being overly influenced by them instead. Mitski may be portraying a fake persona to the public. This fake persona is created by what she sees on TV and the media. Mitski still can't figure out who she really is on the inside. 

The Universe Gets In Her Way In Her Quest To Escape Loneliness 

The main premise of the music video is that Mitski is trying to escape her loneliness but the world prevents her from doing so. When she wakes up, half her bed runs away from her. The world is preventing her from sharing her bed with any one else. She is just supposed to be alone. Also, why is there an orange on her bed? Does anyone know the symbolism of the orange?



The world doesn't want her to connect. She can't dial the phone number to call Eugene. She can't read the mail she receives.

Another obstacle she faces is when she tries to read her diary. In order to read it, more and more cryptic clues come up. Eventually, she solves the puzzle. The "Nobody," turns into the, "You." She needs to stop focusing on how she has "nobody," and instead focus on what she does have - herself.

An inspiring message of self-love. 

What do you think Mitski's "Nobody," music video means? Let me know in the comments!! Also, what's up with the orange?!?!?!


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Saturday, June 23, 2018

Everything Wrong With Drake's "I'm Upset"



Don't get me wrong - I like Drake. I even like this song A LITTLE BIT, though I don't like to admit it. It's got a good beat and when Drake says, "Fifty thousand on my head, it's disrespect", I felt that. I felt that due to my own pretty enemies, and just life tryna get me down. But I have A LOT of problems with this song so let's get started.

1) Am I Supposed To Feel Sorry That Drake Has To Pay Child Support?

Drake spends most of this song complaining that he got a woman pregnant and now has to pay child support. I mean that's on him. Rappers sing about having sex with women all the time - they make it sound so cool and fun but there are ALWAYS risks. Now that a negative consequence of sex has popped up, Drake puts all the blame on the woman when it is his fault too. "I'ma always take the money over sex," - untrue, Drake. If you really care about not having to pay child support, you would have been more careful when having sex.

I don't feel sorry for Drake. He has a lot of money and he can easily take care of his child and the mother of his baby. Does Drake really want to be a deadbeat father? He raps, "My dad still got child support from 1991." He KNOWS how it feels to be cast aside by his own father. He's seen his mom be a single mother and struggle. So why is he trying to continue the cycle and leave his child in the dust? Why is he releasing a song where he sincerely says he doesn't care about his child or his child's mother. Imagine the child listening to this song when he grows up. Drake could have handled this situation in a mature manner.



2) Drake's Very Own, "I'm Not Racist, I Have Black Friends"

You know how racist people sometimes try to prove they are not racist by saying, "I'm not racist, I have black friends?" Drake does something very similar here. He raps, "Thankful for the women that I know/Can't go fifty-fifty with no ho." First he says, "guys, I'm not sexist, I care about some women!! But this one is just a hoe." Just because Drake respects a couple of women in his life, like his mom, doesn't mean he is down for the cause. He is still shaming a woman for having sex. HE IS SHAMING A WOMAN HE WANTED TO HAVE SEX WITH FOR HAVING SEX WITH HIM. It's WILD. Calling women hoes and sluts for having sex is harmful to society because it doesn't allow for women's sexual freedom, it's paints women as sex objects, it supports rape culture. 

3) Drake cares a lot about how much his ransom is?

This is just something I thought was funny. Drake imagines having a hit out on him for "50,000," "100,000," and, "500,000." He finds the 50K and 100K amounts INSULTING. What I find interesting is he is more insulted by the money amounts than the idea that someone wants to kill him. But then at 500,000 he says, "Half a million on my head I can(?) accept, at least it makes me feel like someone tried their best." Now, I can't make out if he says can or can't. He needs to enunciate better. I've always seen it as, "can," because the next sentence explains why he "can" accept it. I just think it is HILARIOUS how touched Drake is that someone would try to kill him for 500K. It makes him feel that someone really cares about him 😊.



4) Using Degrassi To Make This Dumb Song A Hit

Drake is trying to recover from his controversy with Pusha T. He has this dumb song - how does he make the public love him again? By putting together a Degrassi reunion!!! It's genius but insulting to the public. Because Youtube Streaming counts for the billboard charts this song will chart higher than it's supposed to. As you can tell by the subject matter, it's not a song many people can get behind. This song doesn't deserve to be a hit. 

5) Drake Raps About Killing XXXTentacion And Then He Gets Murdered?

That's just bad timing. I don't think Drake actually killed him but it is weird. Drake raps "SMS, triple X/That's the only time I ever shoot below the neck (skrr)/Why you keep on shootin' if you know that n***a dead? (skrr)/That's the only kind of shit that gets you some respect." SMS could be word play for, "Send My Shooters," or for the text messages he received from the girl he was talking about earlier. Triple X is also word play from his previous verse. Towards the ending it's clear he is talking about killing someone and how that's the only thing that gets you respect. It's kinda sad that XXXTentacion died while this song was released as a single. 

Everything Right With Drake's "I'm Upset"

  • Beyonce reference: "That shit is in a box to the left, to the left."
That's all folks!

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Saturday, June 9, 2018

POLL RESULTS: BEST SONG FROM HARRY STYLES' NEW ALBUM?

A year ago, I created a poll on my website that asked: What is the best song from Harry Styles' new album? The poll was expected to close in a year. However, blogger.com actually stopped the poll a month early because they are retiring the poll feature. (Sad!!! That means I will have to find a new way to post a poll on my site).

POLL RESULTS: BEST SONG FROM HARRY STYLES' NEW ALBUM?

POLL RESULTS: BEST SONG FROM HARRY STYLES' NEW ALBUM?

Songs From Harry Styles the Album RANKED by My Readers

  1. Kiwi
  2. Meet Me In The Hallway
  3. Two Ghosts & From the Dining Table
  4. Sign of the Times
  5. Woman
  6. Carolina & Sweet Creature & Only Angel
  7. Ever Since New York


THE WINNER IS KIWI!!! Haha, looks like Kiwi became all our favorite songs when Harry started singing it so much on tour.  I wrote about that here: Harry Styles at Radio City Music Hall: Kiwi is now my favorite song. I'm surprised Meet Me In The Hallway is so high up. It's like a deep cut but I guess we all enjoy emotional!Harry. [This can be seen again with Two Ghosts and From The Dining Table being number 3 - both emotional songs]. I think it's interesting Every Since New York is last place. I agree!! That song is vague and some may feel bored by it. I'm surprised Carolina and Only Angel are so low on this list - they are fun, rock songs I thought every one would enjoy.

Let me know if you agree or disagree with the poll results in the comments. What is your favorite Harry Styles song?

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Saturday, May 26, 2018

The Middle SERIES Finale Review



I just watched The Middle's SERIES Finale and it was so beautiful. I have been a huge fan of this show for a long time. It's been around for 9 years, though I believe I discovered it 5 years ago. I LOVED how this show portrayed a low-income class family which I could relate to. I also loved how the kids were all so different but for some reason, I felt like I could relate to all three. I am dramatic and self-ish like Axl, I am sentimental and unlucky like Sue, and I am a nerd and a weirdo like Brick. The Middle has been a great television show and I am sad to see it end. (even though, it had to end some time!)

The series finale was beautiful. I loved Sue and Sean getting together. I loved them leaving the blue bag. That touching moment between Axl, Sue, and Brick in the car the night before was beautiful. It really seemed like Axl and Sue were crying in real life rather than being scripted. And that was so touching! There was some real emotion there. I loved Axl having three boys that would bother him in years to come. I loved Sue and Sean getting married. (However, I did not like the implication that they broke up, and got back together, and broke up, and got back together. I thought their love was real! The snow globe shattered which means it did its job and brought them together! That's the end of the story!)

Looks like Axl and Lexie got married, Sue and Sean got married, AND I believe Brick and Cindy got married. Brick became a very successful author. In the book signing, he was wearing a wedding band. YAY for Brick.

Also it was so CUTE how the show ended with Reverend Tim Tom corny song and Brick doing his little "tick," and whispering, "The Middle." What a perfect way to end the show.

It was a touching finale. This was great family to follow along! I recommend this show to anyone who wants a binge watch!

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Tuesday, May 22, 2018

Every Song Off Julia Michaels's Album Nervous System RANKED [Track-by-Track Review]

Julia Michaels's Nervous System Review


To be honest, I hadn't paid much attention to Julia Michaels. I was never a fan of her song, "Issues," which I think is a bit boring (you can expect it to be low on this list). Recently, I discovered her song, "Heaven," from the new Fifty Shades soundtrack, aka, the only good single off that album. (For You by Liam Payne and Rita Ora is SUCH a snoozefest). So then I decided to check out her album and some of her interviews.

I like Julia Michaels. You can tell she thinks a lot. She is a good song writer, having written Bad Liar by Selena Gomez and Sorry by Justin Bieber. She seems to care about her craft and seems like a very intelligent person. She can admit her faults and the complexity of relationships. Though I just shaded, "Issues," I do like how she realizes she can't just complain about her boyfriends faults when she has many of her own. It shows maturity and self-awareness.

Anyway, let's get to the list:

7) Issues


Last on my list is "Issues," because I am not a fan of neither the lyrical content nor the music behind it. It's just not a catchy song. I'm not sure how this song charted so high on the Billboard Hot 100. I also think the lyrics are basic and sound like elementary school writing. "I got issues, you got them too." Julia repeats phrases like that through out the song. "When I'm down I get real down."


6) Worst In Me


This song is similar to, "Issues," where Julia highlights that both herself and her boyfriend have problems that could hurt the relationship. I like this song more than, "Issues," because the music and lyrical content both sound more serious. She isn't just saying, "Yeah we both suck," with upbeat music in the background like in, "Issues." This song sounds sad and deep like it should. It's still low on the list because when Julia says the worst in her doesn't want to solve their problems...my question is Why? What is holding you back? I still feel like something is unresolved here.

5) Don't Wanna Think

I like this song because it is very flow of consciousness when it comes to the lyrics. You can tell the lyrics are personal and they are coming from a place of emotion. The sad tone of the music matches the tone of the lyrics. "Swallow it down like a bitter pill/At least it'll taste better than this feeling will," is dramatic and sad and emotional and that's what I like about it



4) Just Do It

I make jokes sometimes

I like the music behind this song the best. It's got a good beat. In this one, Julia is telling her lover to just break up with her already - rip the band aid, so to speak. It's a solid song.

3) Make It Up To You


Similar to, "Just Do It," I like the music behind this song. It's a very suggestive song - letting the listener use their imagination when it comes to exactly how she will make it up to her lover. I think Julia Michaels shines when she is trying to be fun and sexy (which will be seen in the top songs in this list). This song also alludes to the same themes in songs like "Issues," and "Worst In Me," in that Julia thinks she has a lot of flaws.

"I wish I could be that tender, stable girl that you want but I am not." - Julia Michaels

"Actually, throughout my life, my two greatest assets have been mental stability and being, like, really smart." - Trump (Be more like Trump, Julia! [this is a joke xD])


2) Pink

Also another fun and sexy song! I love the music behind this one . I also think it's HILARIOUS. I like how Julia doesn't just spell things out for you. She makes you think. "There's no innuendos, it's exactly what you think / Believe me when I tell you that he loves the color pink."  It's a fun way of singing about vaginas, and that is new and creative so that's why this song is so high up on this list.

1) Uh Huh


This is the song that made me fall in love with Julia Michaels' work. I like how upbeat, fun, and flirty this song is. The music and lyrical content are superb. It really does a good job at describing a crush or an intense infatuation. I like the youthfulness and joy in this song. There is no, "yeah we have a lot of flaws and it sucks." It's just pure, unbridled joy, and that's why "Uh Huh," is my number one Julia Micahels' song.

BONUS SONG: Jump ft. Trippie Redd


This song also plays on the, "I have flaws" theme, but I really like it. You can tell by the music and the lyrics that she is trying to portray the intense emotions of always wanting to be with the other person despite what you know is good for you. I think Trippie Redd also does a good job. He, not only raps on the song, he also sorta sings in line with the song - and he has a good voice! I think this is a good collaboration and a good new song by Julia Michaels.

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Thursday, May 3, 2018

The Bathroom At A Party: An Original Poem

I try to be normal, chatting up a stranger,
I ask, "How do you do? How are you?"
Say the right words, make the right faces,
Is it working? Am I good at this?

My cheeks tire of being held
into different levels of appropriateness,
But I don't notice until I am alone,
and my face can be anything it wants to be.

The Bathroom At A Party,
I always find myself here,
The waves of fake hitting me all at once,
It is the only time at the party that I am me

Here I can wipe away the fake smile,
I can frown,
I can be who I actually am and not what I pretend to be.

Is all of this meaningless?
Spending time with people I'm not sure I like,
Small talk and boring activities .

But we were put on this planet
to CONNECT and to LOVE.

I have never been good at all that
I want to drink from the nectar
that is life. I want experience all that there is.

But this lack of connection is something that's missing.
And I try and I try, repeatedly,
going to parties and going to bathrooms
at parties, asking these same questions
over and over again.

I'll never have the answers,
But in my old age, I'll look back
on these days of youth,
remembering, with fondness, the day
I went to a hip party with cool people

But standing in front of the mirror,
in a bathroom at a party,
I swear I could find 100 better ways to spend my time.

Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Progressive Country Music - A *NEW* Blog Series

I'm starting a new blog series here at Me, Myself, & The Moon. You guys may be aware that my political leanings are more towards the left. Some could call my beliefs liberal or progressive. Although I grew up in a city environment, I do enjoy country music. I enjoy it even more when I can tell that the artist shares my beliefs.

Country music is a genre that is stereotypically conservative. In this blog series, I would like to highlight country music that goes against the grain.

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Saturday, April 14, 2018

Two and a Half Men Without The Misogyny? - Champions, a new NBC comedy, Review

Champions NBC sitcom


Knowing that Kaling helped create Champions is what brought me to the show. I was excited that she had started working on a new project so soon after The Mindy Project ended. Champions is about a man who finds out he has a son that he now has to raise. It is about the adventures of the father, the nephew, and the son.

I titled this article, "Two and a Half Men Without The Misogyny?" because the premise is similar to Two and a Half Men. Champions also feature two adult men and one teenager. However, this show subverts the trope. When you think of the setting of Champions, a fitness GYM, you would think that it could be about a group of masculine men - a ripe setting for sexism and misogyny. However, it isn't. Though the main character, Vince, does have some tendencies towards being a womanizer and being insensitive, he knows, and the audience knows, that it isn't okay. Vince tries to be a better person and that's great! His brother, Andy, is a sweetheart. When his nephew moves in with him, he is the one taking a more caretaker role. He is a loving uncle, trying to understand the things that Michael, the son, enjoys.


The icing on the cake of this "subvert Two and a Half Men" idea is that the teenager is gay. I love that because it forces the two adult men to not take their masculinity seriously. Two and Half Men did feature a lot "seducing women without thinking of them as human beings." In Champions, the focus is on other things.

Michael, the song of Vince and Mindy Kaling's character, is half-Indian. I like how many brown guest stars this show bring on. Hasan Minhaj from the Daily Show appears and he is a breath of fresh air. In one episode, Michael wrestles with whether to join the "Indian," group at school. It's important to note that none of these portrays are stereotypical. We find out Hasan's character is a drug addict. We find out the Indian kids are actually cool kids who party and drink.

I'm excited to see more of what this show has to bring. I want the family bonds to deepen. I want Michael to explore what it means to be be half Indian and gay in future plot lines.

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The Mindy Project SERIES Finale Review

I have been a Mindy Project fan for a loooong time. I remember LOVING it in junior year of college (which, unfortunately, was some time ago). However, there was a long stretch of time where I suddenly stopped watching it (maybe Season 4 when it was first bought by Hulu). But recently, when I watched the pilot of The Champions - Mindy Kaling's newest project - it made me go back and finish the series I had loved so much.


One of the reasons I stopped watching was that I was confused why they took out Danny Castellano's character. It was probably because the actor had other commitments. To be honest, they painted Danny as a HORRIBLE person during the last few seasons. He pushed Mindy to quit her job. He tried to trick her into having another baby. He didn't seem to care about Mindy at ALL. In a way, the writers did do a good job in getting us to forget about Danny now that the actor didn't have enough time to be on the show. They turned him into a colossal jerk so we wouldn't be too sad about losing him.


I'm glad we got to see Mindy go back into the dating scene during the last few seasons. I feel like that has been the central theme of the show and it was cool to see them return to it. It's what they do best.

I liked Ben - Mindy's boyfriend in Season 5. He was nice and handsome. Also anyone notice BJ Novak's first name is Ben too?

One thing I liked about the series finale is that Mindy was mostly concerned about her finances NOT her love life. She was worried that she would have to sell her fertility practice. Previously, it was Jody who saved her practice. I didn't  like Jody. While watching the Mindy Project, I started HATING the enemies to lovers trope. The men Mindy always finds herself attracted to do act like jerks. I'm glad Mindy/Jody didn't happen because it's too similar to Mindy/Danny. It's too much for her to date ANOTHER sexist, traditional, mean guy.

But wasn't it weird how Jody wasn't in the series finale at all? Did they run out of money?

There were a lot of cool full circle moments in the finale. Danny danced again which was a call back to the sweet dance moves from back when he was a better person. Also, the series ended the same way it began!!! That was very exciting!!! Which was Mindy giving a speech at a wedding!!! She avoided falling into the pool this time! Indian Summer by Jai Wolf played just like in the pilot Bad Girls by M.I.A played in the background!! I really liked that. (as evidenced by the exclamation points).

The BEST thing about the finale is that Danny admitted he was wrong. To show that he supports her career, he put in money to save her practice. That was nice. I suppose he redeemed himself for being such a jerk in the past few seasons. Mindy and Danny kiss in a romantic comedy style. Danny starts arguing with her. "We have the rest of our lives to argue," says Mindy. But why would she want to argue with someone like Danny for the rest of her existence? The Mindy Project was always supposed to be a romantic comedy and the series finale delivered on the romantic comedy trope. Mindy runs to Danny. They kiss and make up. Happily Ever After. But I'm not so sure. It's clear they will still have a lot of problems...and maybe they will break up again. I hope not...but Danny does need to become a better person. What he did in the series finale was a start, but he's got a lot of work to do!

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Thursday, March 8, 2018

Is Stella From Life Sentence and The Mother From How I Met Your Mother The Same Person? [CONSPIRACY THEORY]

Is Stella From Life Sentence and The Mother From How I Met Your Mother The Same Person? [CONSPIRACY THEORY]

I don't do a lot of conspiracy theories on my blog as I am a sane and logical person BUT GET THIS. Here are the promo pics from The CW's newest series Life Sentence:


Lucy Hale, aka Stella, is holding a YELLOW UMBRELLA. Long time fans of How I Met Your Mother would recognize this as the timeless symbol of the mysterious and elusive figure in the series known only by the name of "The Mother." For years we questioned, we analyzed, we discussed: Who is The Mother? Have we finally got our answer?


The yellow umbrella was a huge clue introduced in the episode titled, "No Tomorrow." WILD. In my previous post, I was just talking about how Life Sentence and the beloved-but-cancelled-CW-TV-show, No Tomorrow, are so similar with themes of living your life to the fullest. Coincidence? I THINK NOT. THE CW, I AM ON TO YOU.

Anyway, the yellow umbrella belonged to a mysterious woman. The fandom was afloat with theories that stated that the Mother might die by the end of the series which would make Ted and Robin endgame. During How I Met Your Mother's final season, they were given a heartbreaking clue. The Mother remarks in an episode titled, "Vesuvius" , "What mother misses their daughter's wedding?" AND THEN TED LOOKS SAD AND CRIES. I was shook. Everyone was shook. Later on in the season finale, our fears were confirmed. The Mother is sick and dying. Stella WAS sick and dying. TWO YELLOW UMBRELLA LOVERS WHO FACE SICKNESS AND DEATH?  What if the sickness The Mother faces IS cancer? What if these two people are the same EXACT PERSON?

Who is The Mother in How I Met Your Mother?
Later on it is revealed that The Mother is portrayed by Cristin Milioti. She is a cute, petite, brunette girl - guess who else fits that same criteria?!?!?! It's Stella from Life Sentence.  The similarities between these two women cannot be any more obvious.

how I met your mother yellow umbrella life sentence Stella
The PROOF CANNOT BE ANY CLEARER
I know what you are thinking - there are a lot of holes to my theory. You might say, "But The Mother's name is Tracy!!! That's no where near Stella." Or you may say, "If The Mother is Stella then does that mean Ted Mosby is Wes?" Ted did say, "Because... I love you. I'm always gonna love you. 'Til the end of my days, and beyond," in the episode titled, "The Time Travelers." Didn't Wes JUST say that in the pilot of Life Sentence? Wes says, "I was always going to love you for the rest of my life." BOOM. COUNTERED YOUR ARGUMENT.


Life Sentence (The CW) TV Review: We All Face The Danger Of Uncertain Life



As y'all are probably aware, I love The CW's female driven dramedies. I enjoyed No Tomorrow before it got canceled. I did a whole series of posts for my favorite show of ALL TIME Crazy Ex Girlfriend. I watch Jane The Virgin regularly (though I've never posted about it on my blog 🤔). I even watch Riverdale! I'm a CW fan, and that's why I was excited to check out this new show and I really enjoyed it.

When I watched No Tomorrow, I could kind of tell why it got cancelled. I feel like it took some time for No Tomorrow to gain its footing. The earlier episodes were weaker than its later episodes. With Life Sentence, I have a lot of hope. The pilot was great! It was funny, and shocking at the same time. I was shocked when they revealed that Stella's mom was leaving her dad. When they mentioned that and cut to commercial break, I was like, "oh snap, it's about to go down," which is exactly what I want to be feeling during a drama. It made me go: oh, how is everyone going to deal with this new development? I wanted to stay tuned and find out. 


The pilot introduced some interesting characters and relationship dynamics. During the opening scene when Stella and Wes were telling the story of her cancer and how they met, I thought it was really good character development when Wes says, "And she was afraid to die," and Stella says, "Don't say that, I wasn't afraid to die." It shows that their relationship was no equal. It was a great way of SHOWING us that, and not telling us that.

After that scene, I thought that Wes and Stella were sure to break up at least once during this season. Stella and Wes don't really know each other and that can really destroy a relationship. But by the end of the pilot, I changed my mind because it was really sweet and touching when Wes said that he was always going to love her for the rest of his life. They really do love each other. They are willing to work on their relationship like adults. Wes promises to be there for her and that's the best promise there is for a committed relationship. 



What I didn't like about Life Sentence:

  • How did Stella not notice any of the secrets her family were hiding from her? It just doesn't make sense. A tight-knit family all deciding to keep multiple secrets from one member of the family? It's impossible. As said in Lucy Hale's previous show, "Two can keep a secret if one of them is dead." 
  • Also, the way all the secrets came out shows that the family isn't good at keeping secrets. Stella walking in on her mom and her new lover? We know Stella's mom still wanted to keep that a secret. So why now just go kissing someone on your porch in broad daylight? I get that this is a TV show and they had to introduce all the secrets to the audience but still, it doesn't make sense.
  • When Stella threw that party for her doctor, the family had ONE job and that job was to look sane in front of their guest. They could have kept it together. They have been keeping it together for so many years in front of Stella and they couldn't do that for 30 minutes. I call BS that this family can keep any secrets from anyone.
  • I was NOT happy with the reveal that Stella's sister wanted to be a writer. That was out of left field! Is there something wrong with wanting to be successful at your office job? It would have been much cooler for her to balance raising her children and being a success at a high-powered business career. Being a stay at home writer with kids just doesn't break gender stereotypes as much as being a successful business women with kids. When we saw her not enjoying motherhood as much as she thought, I thought breaking gender stereotypes is what the show was going for. Sorta like The Awakening by Kate Chopin. 

The main reason why I loved Life Sentence:

Life Sentence is a deep show. On the surface, it might not look that way but I like what it is trying to say about life, love, and society. In this respect, it is a little similar to No Tomorrow, Both No Tomorrow and Life Sentence explore what it means to live life. Living means both the good, the bad, and the mundane. We are all going to die and no one will live a perfect life before they do (like what Stella was trying to go for). Our relationships will be complex and tough. We will spend days working jobs we don't like wasting the minutes of our limited life. Change and surprises will constantly happen that will throw us off our feet. We have to be strong enough to face whatever life gives us, and brave enough to enjoy both the good and the bad.

Overall, Life Sentence was a good show and I am looking forward to what comes next. I will be watching every Wednesday!

I wrote a joke article titled, Is Stella From Life Sentence and The Mother From How I Met Your Mother The Same Person? [CONSPIRACY THEORY], check it out if you want to read something fun.

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